These Two Hands…

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My hands are my primary means of self expression within my world. If you are here at ReAwaken Through Touch, you know that one avenue of that expression is my massage work. Did you know that I also create genuine stone and sterling silver beaded jewelry? 
I have many pieces now on my Etsy site Dawn Welburn Jewelry. I believe passionately in the power of genuine stones to aid in healing and strive to facilitate your healing through the multi-faceted touch of my jewelry creations. In addition to the jewelry on my site, I also create custom order pieces.  Contact me at DawnWelburnJewelry@gmail.com for more information or through Etsy at Dawn Welburn Jewelry.                                          

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In Her Service

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As some of you may have realized upon discovering and exploring my website, massage therapy itself is not the main purpose of my Work. Although it has dominated both the site and my life for years, the primary focus or vision behind my work and my site has been to facilitate ones journey into the interconnected and cyclic work of ReAwaken, ReDiscover and ReConnect.

During my personal work on this journey in the past month, my meditations and ruminations have brought forth an important message or theme for my work going forward. An integral piece of my life and my journey is my ever evolving relationship and service to Goddess. She is the inspiration and driving force of my massage work, volunteer endeavors, activism, and ReAwaken vision. I have realized that it is now time to once again share both my personal relationship with Goddess and to facilitate a relationship with Her for those who desire and need Her in their life.

I will soon be adding new Pages to my website and new Services and Workshops. Some of these will be: Goddess Exploration Workshop and Group; ReAwaken Group for Women (and those who self identify as women); New Power of Touch Workshop and Group; Meditation; and Private instruction on all subjects.  If you are interested in participating in these offerings or have any questions on these or any of my other Services or Offerings, please feel free to contact me at ReAwakenThroughTouch@gmail.com.

Many years ago, I was asked to participate in a Service about Goddess at the UUCD in Danbury, Connecticut. Here is a piece I wrote for that Service:

Many people talk about Goddess, Goddess Energy and awakening their inner Goddess.

They call themselves a Goddess or talk about finding their Cooking Goddess, Sex Goddess or Shopping Goddess.

Goddess is often intellectualized and talked about in scholarly or fictional and mythological terms.

BUT, to truly awaken your inner Goddess-to really fully embrace and empower this Divine Feminine within-you have to first really Know who and what Goddess is.

She is inside of you, and outside.
Both the One and the 10,001
She is the Sun and the Moon
The Dark and the Light
Your Daughter, Your Mother
Your Sister, Your Lover

I Hear Her song from the birds in the trees, I Smell Her in the early morning air, I Feel Her in the raging winds and I See Her EVERYWHERE-in Everything and Everyone. She is the interconnectedness of ALL.

In Her Service,
Dawn Welburn

Why I Bought a Home HIV Test

http://livluna.com/why-i-bought-a-home-hiv-test/

As I sit here on the couch, with the test on my lap, I wonder what you will think of me when you know that I am taking a home HIV test. Will you think that I have lied about my sexual history? Will you look at me differently than you did yesterday? The twenty minutes wait for the test results is a long time for a worrier to think about all of the consequences of every action she has ever taken, including the purchase of this test. Maybe I should tell you a little about myself, while we wait for the results.

I am a single (divorced people should be able to call themselves single after 15 years, right?) 41-year-old woman and mother of a fabulous daughter. Most people who know me would describe me as dependable, reliable, honest…blah, blah…all those words that describe a woman with a rather boring and vanilla sex life. As much as I would like to tell you that they are wrong, that my sexual history is full of wild, crazy and even risky encounters, I must admit that they are right. My sexual history will never be made into an erotic novel. I’ve had a handful of long term relationships where I was monogamous and that is it. Nothing risky. As far as IV drug use? Please refer back to the beginning of this paragraph and just substitute the sex for drugs. So, no risk factors in my personal behavior for potential HIV exposure. Why would I buy and take a test for HIV? The short answer is, why not? What makes me so special that I am immune from possibly contracting HIV?

 

Yvonne Cruz holds an OraQuick Advance HIV test at a World AIDS Day event in Chicago.Wait, I know where your mind is going. You are thinking back to my being a worrier, maybe a little crazy, worrying about contracting strange diseases that I could never have. Yes, I realize that is exactly what I thought a year ago, but this past year has changed me. In this time, I went from a being someone who had nothing but a basic and fairly outdated knowledge of HIV and AIDS to pacing the halls outside of health clinics with a friend, crying and devastated over a positive test result and then elated over subsequent negative results; meeting people living full, happy and mostly healthy lives with HIV and watching others with untreated HIV infections go from bad to worse. In my growing desire to help those living with HIV through my massage therapy profession, I have educated myself by reading article after article on both the current state of HIV in the United States, and how bodywork can help those living with HIV.Contrary to popular belief, this disease has not gone away and is actually on the rise again. It is frightening and unless you know people affected by HIV, you just have no idea.

 

This still doesn’t quite explain to you why I am sitting here on this couch, waiting and actually worried about the results of my test. Well, it suddenly hit me a few weeks ago, that for all of my personal and professional experiences this past year, I was still viewing HIV as something outside of myself and my possibilities. I was still seeing this with a sort of ‘me’ and ‘them’ viewpoint. I wanted to help ‘them’, but I never saw myself or ‘women like me’ as potentially ever being one of ‘them’. What a huge realization this was for me and quite honestly, a bit shameful. I mean, where do I get off thinking I am better or somehow safer than anyone else?

Here is where we get to the reality of the matter. I am not any safer from HIV than you or anyone else. There are no guarantees no matter what your sexual partners have ever told you, and their previous partners have told them, and on and on. You cannot be sure of your HIV status and exposure unless you have been tested or have never had any sexual encounters whatsoever, consensual or otherwise. For me, that worrier with trust issues, the idea that I have spent my adult life trusting the word of not only my previous partners but their partners before (and possibly during) our relationship…well, I will just say that is quite a reality check.  As a woman, I suddenly felt like I had unconsciously lived this societal programming to just go along, behave, believe and stay ignorant. That is not the woman I strive to be.


So, with the support of a trusted friend, I ventured alone to the pharmacy this morning and bought this home HIV test. Today, I am taking back both control and responsibility for my life, my health, and my sexuality. My twenty minutes are up and it is time to check my results. Thankfully, it shows that I am HIV negative. Now I know and there is power in the knowing.

 

 

Picture 2About Dawn Welburn:

Dawn Welburn is a Licensed Massage Therapist on a journey of reawakening, reconnecting and rediscovering her Self and her World. She hopes that in sharing this journey through her hands, her words and ReAwaken bodywork, others may find their own Path to ReAwaken.

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